Anatomy is Aging Me!

First, I am IN LOVE with my Ipad2 for studying. Visible body is a great way for me to get a 3-D view of ligaments, muscle attachments, etc. I have all of my anatomy notes on there. It's just amazing and I love it!

Second, WOW. This has been SUCH a tough semester. I have been feeling pretty down about the whole thing. A lot of my friends who submitted their applications at the same time as me have gotten interviews. Others in my class have even gotten their acceptance letters. I don't even have an interview yet. I check my email incessantly waiting for that email saying "Please come talk to us". I feel like if I get an interview I have a decent shot of getting in. . . it's just getting that interview. Ugh. Honestly that interview has been on my mind constantly.

I have a back-up plan. I will graduate in May, and then spend one more year where I am, getting my Masters in Biology Medical Sciences, and then try again next year.

I have been trying to figure out a way to balance a very challenging class with spending time with my family. I would not say that I have been entirely successful. :( And apparently my brain is so full of anatomy that other things are falling out. I forgot to lock my car and someone stole my purse out of it. So I stopped carrying a purse and kept my debit card in my pocket, and now that is missing as well. Eek. I am such a mess!

Anyway, back to Gross. I only have 4 hours till I have to go to work so I need to keep plugging away.

Applications and Anatomy

This semester has blown my mind. The AMCAS application was a beast. I still have one letter of recommendation on the way. . . .Ugh. Ready for secondaries. Ready to know where my life is leading me.

Anatomy. Gross Anatomy makes me want to crawl under a rock and cry. SO hard. SO much information. SO much to learn in a short period of time. I spend so much time studying that I rarely see my family.  This past week I was gone every night until late. These late nights make me wonder if I made the right decision trying to go back to school to be a doctor when I have three kids. And then I wonder - if you become a doctor first WHEN do you have the kids? ugh. There's no really easy answer. I know in my heart that I will never regret spending 10 years at home with my angels. I know that I would not have been a stay-at-home mom with a doctorate. And i know that in the end I will get the best of both worlds - a demanding career AND that time with my babies.

But sometimes it is so HARD.