Super Bowl 2011

We had friends over for the Super Bowl. The food was excellent. The people were fun. The studying. . . didn't happen. My friend is in my organic chemistry class. We have a test in there Wednesday morning. We REALLY both needed to be studying. Before they came I had time to do my calculus homework, but I really feel like I took an evening "off". It was depressing hitting the button to set my alarm for the morning. Busy busy day tomorrow. Organic, calculus, resistance training, organic lab, and cell bio lab, then a review session for the organic test (which I WON'T miss!!)

Ugh. Makes me tired just thinking about it. And makes me so thankful that I have such amazing friends at school to talk to and keep the day light. They give me something to look forward to!

Relying on Others.

This has always been tough for me. Before we moved 1,000 miles away from family, we NEVER had anyone watch our kids. I was always too afraid to ask, or afraid they would not get the kind of  care we expect them to have, or that we would be inconveniencing someone.  Fast forward to "The Big Move" from Virginia to Jackson, MS, and we have to rely on neighbors/friends sometimes.  Normally the husband and I do a pretty good job of splitting up the workload between the 2 of us and don't have to rely on others too much. But next Sunday (Feb 20) he is flying to Utica for work. That leaves just me.

The problem is that my classes don't always let out in time for me to pick them up. And for this, I am having to rely on my friends and neighbors. I really don't have any other choice. It still makes me uncomfortable. Not because my kids won't get good care (they are older now and easier to leave!). Mostly I am concerned about inconveniencing my friends/neighbors. What choice do I have? I can't skip out on organic chemistry lab. I can't skip out on my nighttime immunology class (we have a test that week).

It's just hard when I have to beg for help. I am so grateful to have those neighbors and friends to help me when I need it.

Busy. Crazy. Mom.

I mean well. I really do. But somehow the days are slipping away from me. 

The girls are great. Husband is great. I am CRAZED. I thought taking 17 hours would be okay. that I could handle it. I thought the extra 3 hour research thing could fit into my schedule. It does, but only if I am okay with having no free time. Which is fine, I guess. I miss having a relaxed life, though. I know it is only going to get worse. I know that I have to job shadow and study for MCAT during spring break. I know i have to take physics 1, physics 2 and the MCAT this summer. And then my senior year, and applications to med school. THEN there is the joy of finding out whether or not I am accepted, and whether we are going to try the cross-country move thing again, and where the hubby will be working. And I am just moving along, going on faith that it will all work out. That I will get accepted somewhere where the girls will be able to go to good schools and he will get a good job and it will all be fine. But it is CRAZY. :)

So that's me. And my family. I have so much on my mind and no time to blog about it! 

Semester Off to a Good Start.

I am horrifyingly aware that I am taking the MCAT in 7 months. . . . Eek!

This semester is off to a good start. Haven't had any tests yet but I have 2 this week, so I have been studying a lot today, and there will be more studying tomorrow.

I was offered an amazing  research role yesterday. One of my friends suggested that I do this. Anyway, each student involved in the research will get their own virus (I GET MY OWN VIRUS!!) and we do experiments on said virus using expensive equipment at our school as well as million dollar equipment at the med school *that we are not allowed to touch, seeing as how we are measly PRE-med students and all*. At the end of the semester we will write a paper and our professor will publish our work as a single-author work, as well as compile all of our work and try to get it published in a major publication, with our names on it.  I am SO excited!

So this semester I am taking Organic Chem 2 with lab, Immunology, cell biology with lab, and calculus. So far I am hanging in there but I am pretty sure as we get into this semester this is going to get hard. In immuno we have a test every other week. Getting pretty stressed about this class - it is pretty tough. It is offered to both grad students and undergrads but it seems like the majority of the students in the class are grad students and it is being taught at their level. I definitely feel like I have catching up to do.

Finals. Finally.

Wow. This has been a stressful few weeks.

Almost done. Almost done. I keep telling myself this in the hopes that I will believe this and find comfort. Tomorrow morning at 8 am I have my organic chemistry final. I am on the edge of having an A or a B in this class, so if I do really well on my final I will get an A. If not I have a REALLY good chance of getting a B. I am trying to resign myself to being okay with a B but I am REALLY not.

Tuesday night I have my embryology final. There is NO way I can get an A, but I can EASILY get a B.

And after that, I am DONE. I am going to the fat farm to get put on Adipex. :) Time to lose this school stress weight! ;)

Death and Families

I came across this on another blog:



I felt that it needed to be shared here. This comes from the blog - Asystole is the Most Stable Rhythm.

This is especially appropriate because I lost my beloved grandmother last week. She was 90 and in good health. Her death was very sudden. She had a DNR about 12 years ago, but WAS resuscitated at the hospital because they couldn't find her paperwork. Later she admitted that she was glad that they couldn't find it-  and she had several WONDERFUL years left in her. She passed away Wednesday morning, in her own home, under her own terms. Family members wanted to see her live in an independent living type home, but she insisted on living in her own house, and she got her wish. I am grateful for her life, and for her guidance throughout my life, and I will miss her dearly.

Registered for Spring!

Our school had open registration for juniors at 5 am this morning. (Yesterday was seniors and grad students, tomorrow is sophomores, etc). I set my alarm for 4:55 and got up and registered. It went pretty quickly because I had my class numbers all ready to go, so I just entered the numbers of my preferred classes and it registered me. I did try to register at 4:59 - and the website reminded me that I was not allowed to register until 5 am. I had to log out and log back in. Talk about being eager!

So Spring Semester I am taking Organic Chem 2, plus the lab, Immunology, Cell bio and the lab, calculus, chapel and resistance training.

This will be my last semester of math, chapel and PE! Very exciting to be moving ahead and getting to those real "pre-med" classes.

Summer semester is physics 1 and 2 and the MCAT.

And then I will take histology, medical physiology, gross anatomy, neuroanatomy, all of those fun classes. :)

I'm ready.